Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit
You know, even though there are people in my life who are deserving of the "You made my life hell" badge -- like my tyrannical stepfather or my biological father who divorced my mom when I was a baby and went back to his home country of Jamaica never to be heard from again -- the fact remains that no one has worked harder for that honor than myself.
That's right. I'm my best friend and my own worst enemy all at once. All of the unhappiness in my life can ultimately be traced backed to me and my perceptions of or my reactions to certain realities in my life.
And no one treats me like shit better than I do. I'm extremely hard on myself, unloving even, sometimes self-loathing. I never cut myself any slack and that can make a girl very unhappy.
But the good thing is that the person who has the power to treat me worse than anyone I know also has the power to treat me the best. Slowly, very slowly, I'm learning to be kind to myself, to take it easy on the old psyche. I'm only human for goodness sakes, a human that deserves to be treated with a little more compassion.
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2 comments:
Preach it.
It's nice that you take responsibility for your own happiness rather than looking for others to blame. You are an amazing person.
If you can't tell, I'm really enjoying your "30 days of truth" series and am reading every one of them! After a long absence.
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