Today was a splurge day for me because 1)I have to have one of those about once a week in order for me to remain sane, and 2)It's a long day what with work and my 3 hour beauty shop appointment(Don't even get me started!) and long days mean I need to eat something more filling than the bird food I normally eat.
Initially, I had toyed with the idea of having a Quarter-pounder with cheese and French fries as my splurge meal but ended up opting for something a little healthier - a 6" tuna sub from Subway, 1 1/2 ounces of Sunchips and a light lemonade.
After my delicious yet somewhat healthy lunch, I immediately started having cravings for dessert. And not any old dessert mind you, but one dessert in particular -- 138 grams of sugar-free vanilla ice cream (Yes, I measure it.) with 2 tablespoons of creamy peanut butter mixed in and a generous sprinkling of mini-chocolate chips on top. But I didn't have any of those things with me and it would be at least 9pm before I'd be able to satisfy my food desire.
So I did what any self-respecting food addict would do: I rummaged through the snack drawer in my desk looking for something, anything, to satisfy my very specific food craving. I started off with a peanut butter and chocolate Fiber Plus bar, yummy to be sure but not exactly what I was looking for. I then moved on to two miniature Hershey's dark chocolate bars I was saving for a rainy day. Or sunny day. Whatever. I finished it all off with 4 whole wheat pita chips.
Eventually, I decided that instead of wrecking my diet. . .er, lifestyle change, that I would wait until I got home to eat what it is I REALLY wanted. That way, I'll be less inclined to inhale everything around me.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Crisis Averted
At 10 p.m. last night, I almost got into my car to drive to the nearest grocery store to stock up on binge food.
Almost.
The only thing that stopped me was a case of the sleepys that was descending upon me rather rapidly. I was too tired to binge eat.
The trigger was loneliness. I had just gotten off the phone with The Boyfriend and I was missing him terribly. Soon after, I got this sudden urge to have food in my mouth (Well it wasn’t so sudden. I always have the urge to eat though sometimes the urge is stronger than at other times) so I reached for a handful of almonds and 3 miniature Snicker bars and consumed them in record time. Not as disastrous as past binge sessions to be sure but still not the direction I wanted to go in.
As I was stuffing my face, I realized that as long as the food was in my mouth, I felt good. Once the food was gone, I was immediately looking for something to replace it. I had gone through the only unhealthy food items in my pantry (the Snickers bars) and was now looking to consume an entire box of gingersnaps. Only I didn’t have any gingersnaps.
If I wanted to inhale 18 servings of cookies in one sitting in the name of happiness, I would have to go to the store to get them. I went to bed instead.
Crisis averted.
Today, I am in a better frame of mind. I started off the day with a healthy breakfast, I’ve packed a healthy lunch and I plan to continue the healthy activities that I’ve engaged in for the past 6 weeks – walking a mile and a half on my lunch break and then doing aerobics in the evening.
But I know that won’t be the last urge to binge I’ll experience. There will be more. And I’ll have to figure out ways to deal with them because I can’t depend on sleepiness to rescue me every time.
Maybe there’ll be a new drug invented that knocks me into a coma every time I get the urge to consume my weight in Suzy Qs.
One can dream.
Almost.
The only thing that stopped me was a case of the sleepys that was descending upon me rather rapidly. I was too tired to binge eat.
The trigger was loneliness. I had just gotten off the phone with The Boyfriend and I was missing him terribly. Soon after, I got this sudden urge to have food in my mouth (Well it wasn’t so sudden. I always have the urge to eat though sometimes the urge is stronger than at other times) so I reached for a handful of almonds and 3 miniature Snicker bars and consumed them in record time. Not as disastrous as past binge sessions to be sure but still not the direction I wanted to go in.
As I was stuffing my face, I realized that as long as the food was in my mouth, I felt good. Once the food was gone, I was immediately looking for something to replace it. I had gone through the only unhealthy food items in my pantry (the Snickers bars) and was now looking to consume an entire box of gingersnaps. Only I didn’t have any gingersnaps.
If I wanted to inhale 18 servings of cookies in one sitting in the name of happiness, I would have to go to the store to get them. I went to bed instead.
Crisis averted.
Today, I am in a better frame of mind. I started off the day with a healthy breakfast, I’ve packed a healthy lunch and I plan to continue the healthy activities that I’ve engaged in for the past 6 weeks – walking a mile and a half on my lunch break and then doing aerobics in the evening.
But I know that won’t be the last urge to binge I’ll experience. There will be more. And I’ll have to figure out ways to deal with them because I can’t depend on sleepiness to rescue me every time.
Maybe there’ll be a new drug invented that knocks me into a coma every time I get the urge to consume my weight in Suzy Qs.
One can dream.
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