Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The Life of the Unemployed: Day 1

After being laid off from my job of 16 years, I spent my first day of unemployment moping around the house. I didn't break down and have a crying fit like I thought I would but I was pretty much in a daze the entire day. About an hour after I had returned home, I stopped resisting the urge to put on my pajamas and curl up in a fetal position on my bed. It was somewhat cathartic. By 6 p.m. though, I had declared an end to my moping. Tomorrow, I said to myself, I'm going to start being deliberate about how I spend my days. I decided to spend the next week relaxing, clearing my head and not making any major decisions. I also vowed to do only what I enjoy doing.

Today, my first full day of unemployment, I've stayed true to the promise I made to myself. So far, here's how I've spent my day:

8:30 a.m. Got out of bed. For months now, I've been going to bed at 11:30 p.m or midnight every night and feeling exhausted by the time my alarm went off at 7 a.m. Last night, I didn't even bother setting my alarm. I let my body get as much sleep as it needed and boy did I feel better for it.

8:45-9:45 a.m. Ate breakfast and did my devotional. For the first time, I am attending a church that acknowledges the liturgical seasons. That means I get to celebrate Lent, which I have never done before . During the church service on Sunday (before I was laid off), I had decided to "fast" some of my time (I know I'm stretching the fasting concept here but work with me) and do my devotional every day for 40 days, a task that sadly I have yet to accomplish and lately have been EXTREMELY lax about. I'm glad I made this decision because I've suddenly found myself in what could possibly be a very tumultuous time in my life and I can use all the spiritual enlightenment I can get.

9:45-10:45 a.m. Yoga. This falls into the "do only what I enjoy doing" category. I LOVE yoga. It's good for the body but it's also very calming to both the mind and the spirit and I'm going to need a calm mind and a calm spirit as I navigate through all the red tape at the unemployment office.

11:00-12:00 p.m. Ate lunch and did dishes. Now, you may not think that doing dishes would be something that I would enjoy doing but I haven't done dishes since my fiance's last visit on Feb. 14. That's a long time ago and a lot of dishes. They are beginning to take over my kitchen and I plan to wrestle its possession back into my control.

12:10 p.m. I noticed that the passenger side lock on my car would not open. I shrugged my shoulders, entered my car through the driver's side and went on my merry way.

12:30-1:30 p.m. Visited with former co-workers and spread the news of my lay off to the ladies at my gynecologist's office next door.

1:30 p.m. I examined the lock on my passenger door and realized that someone had tried to break into my car. This must have occurred either while I was at home or at my Monday night yoga class. Those are the only places where my car was parked for any length of time.

1:45-2:45 p.m. I spent $40 at Walmart on necessities! Don't they know I just lost my job?!?

3:30 p.m. Called the sheriff's department and filed a report for my attempted car break-in just in case I decide to file an insurance claim.

5:00 p.m. Left for my weekly Bible study. I had originally considered dropping out of this study, but that was when I was working multiple jobs, going to yoga once a week and handbell practice on Wednesdays. Now that I have all the time in the world, I think I'll keep this activity if for no other reason then to have one hour a week where I am not focusing on myself and my joblessness.

6 comments:

m/p said...

grizz, it isnt that youre unemployed thats the challenge, but uncertainty is what plays off of your anxieties.

hang in there...and watch for open doors.

im praying for you.

m.

ps...sounds like a perfectly lovely day where youre in charge of your hours and what you do with them.

Angela said...

Dera Angela, I don`t want to sound too religious, but at such a time of strange uncertainty, seeking spiritual guidance seems just right. Watch for open doors is a good advice. Think of all the things you can do and enjoy doing. There might be a new job possibility there! Thinking of you from far away!

Anonymous said...

So much in agreement w/ m/p and angela.

Any part-time job that you can find-- just ask people in your church! I'm certain that someone in your church is looking for an able-person (reliable-16yrs!) to help somewhere!

Pray, and we are praying for you!! T

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad to hear you are giving yourself the freedom to do some things just for you. I hope you get the time you need to restore yourself before finding just the right next step. Thinking of you and wishing the best for your future.

bulletholes said...

Tough hit Grizzbabe, I hate to hear it. Got no words for you except...
When you find the lowlife that tried to bust into your car let me know.
Hey! wait! I've been sposed to be learnin' how to pray so I'll do one of my pitiful little preyers for you!
I hear God favors the inexperienced, unpractised prayer!

Coaster Punchman said...

Glad to see you making practical use of your time.